so fed up..

went redbox today with my "friends"..
i m so pissed off by wat they hav done there..

actual time is 3pm..
i told them to sing first after i finish my thing i go..
den dunno y change to 4pm till 7pm.
ok lo i early told will back early d so is ok..

b4 i go the B sent me a msg..
saying he he now no mood d la.. got ppl curse him la etc..
definately not me la.. cz i din tok to him wat..
den he sent nothing d to me.. okay lo..

so i go.. with Z.. Z is still not bad..
same boat with me..
so we reach there.. go in the room..
pretend like nothing happened..
''hello hello.. hihi..''
den start d..
i choose song n wan sing..
halfway the B cut off.. SKIP..
den he laugh.. ''ei wat happen?'' ''not me la''
OKAY.. first time..
second song.. sing few sentense, den skip again..
starred at him.. he laugh.. smile.. forget it..
sing again.. he say every song sing till chorus one time cut..
n so he did..
some of his favourite n his Best Friends favourite he din press the remote..
fine.. cz i noe im nothing compare to the 2..
around 6.15.. was singing my choosen song again..
he did the same thing..
i din say anything..
nxt song juz start a while nia he press skip..
wtf im getting fustrated d.. make my black face n wanna leave d..

the 3 of them were shocked.. look at me..
i take my student card n a rm10 pass to L.. he refuse..
so i giv face sat a while.. in the end i cannot tahan so i left..

u see la.. wat kind of ppl is dis..
think of themselves only..
i noe.. u 3 are best fren.. im just side actor..
like a fool acting there..
im so disapointed..
feel like moving away..

change la..
for goodness sake la..

TwentyNinethJulyTwoThousandNEight

so many days din post anything d..
just went back from Kuala Lumpur on Sunday nite @ around 9.30pm..

okay its story telling time::

last friday: no very gud.. cuz i felt like im nothing in their eyes..
they wanna play badminton at e-park.. at first i dint wanna go..
but someone keep asking me go.. if no go means bla bla bla la..
so i said ok. n said 5.30pm im leaving home.. so after school as usaul i sleep..
around 5.25pm i sent my mum off to work.. when i pass by B house.. i saw his bike..
so after drop my mum i called B n ask if he has go.. he said "bo liao.. today cancel liao"
i was like 'huh' 'y no ppl tell me wan?!' den i hang up n drove home..
den received a msg frm B "dear paul.. today 6pm bdmntn cancel ya.. dun say i din
tel u ah". dint reply.. when i online at msn he sent sry sry sry sry many times.. make
my com hang for a while n then say me lan si lo din reply him.. wtf.. i den say nothing
liao.. den he ask me go his house bottom sit n chat cz got Z coming.. i think a while..
since i got nothing to do so i go lo.. too kind.. should'nt go.. haha.. den go eat.. they eat..
den go home.. start packing n preparing for saturday..

saturday: woke at 6.45am.. den do dis do dat.. leave for k.l. only at 9+am.. sleep a while in car..
see the view of malaysia's highway.. swt.. reached setapak/wangsa maju.. my sis's
rented 'condo' at 1.30pm..settle down, do her things den go jusco buy her things..
very clever her, spend my mum's money to buy her things.. after dat went to petaling
jaya to visit a ah mah(grandma).. very grand wan leh.. haha.. cz her 80th bday is near..
gave me a RM100 angpau.. yeah.. after her house leave to salak selatan, cheras.. cz
staying at my dad's gud fren house.. at nite sleep..Zzz

sunday: went for dim sum with them.. very full.. den leave for petaling jaya again. seeherAGAIN
bfore go home.. den went to MidValley Megamall with my dad's daughter.. walau si pek
gau walk la her.. she can walk so long with her high heels.. cool. was so crowded there..
even wan to find a parking is so terribly hard.. long ques on the road.. full of ppl in the
mall.. mayb its sunday n MegaSale.. my sis bought shoes n shirts.. me.. i manage to buy
a wallet.. i'll wait till my bday den use it.. after had lunch at a thai restaurant.. walk back
to The Gardens(another big mall), where we park our car.. sent my dad's fren daughter
back to salak selatan, den go wangsa maju to drop my sis.. den only wanna back to
penang.. dat was around 5pm d.. along the highway.. a small kancil was'playing' with us..
when we drive pass him, an indian.. he drive near us n cut us.. so i ask my mum drive
faster somemore.. dat time was around 130km/h d.. so we cut him n he cut us again..
so we do da same thing again till he cannot tahan he drive very fast n go in front.. we dint
follow.. cz we r stopping d.. haha..

Oops..

waa..
suprisingly something suprise me today..
now i should ignore wat i wrote yesterday..
but i wont delete it cz some of it is true.. ya..

he reached skul b4 i did..
so when i enter the class i jz pretend like nothing happen walk to my place n sit..
look here n there n then sleep..
suddenly he knock me.. asking me some homework thing..
i answered n sleep again..
after dat he called me again n talk to me..
den i realise dat actually nothing is happening d..
not like wat i thought yesterday..

funny character la him..
dunno..

n juz now his was knocked/crash by another bike..
but nothing serious..
he dint even fall so its ok..haha
crazy la dat boy..
dunno how to describe here..

wat's wrong??!!

well, dis morning was okay..
jz abit boring cz my friend[B] dint talk to me n talk to his ''best fren''..
so i jz sit there do my thing.. see news paper.. do homework..
den talk abit to me..
ask me ''eh he wat happen?" (another guy[Z] n they had some mistaken a day b4)
i said i dunno la.. mayb tired or wat..
den he say "oo.. i dun think so la.." (cz he noe wats wrong wat)


at recess time.. Z was sitting nxt to me n bside B..
they dint even look at each other.. rather talking..
Z talk to me bout wat happen between he n B..
so i roughly noe wat is happening..
den after Z finish eating he juz went out of da canteen..
B ask me wats wrong..
i pretend dunno say nothing wring wat.. jz mayb he no mood..
B say ''nono.. no mood is not like dat wan"
den i jz keep quiet..
since u noe wat's wrong with both of u y not u try to solve it?!


after recess is i.c.t class..
so the B n gang sat in front n me n Z sat bhind..
y? bcoz the B dun even care whether im there..
they dint want to talk to me n i dun noe wat r they talking about..
so how could i join them?


after dat back to class..
the B n gang sat together n talk n laugh..
me sitting bside like transperent..
so Z came n talk to me..
n so i talk to him..
gossiping bout B..
mayb he heard something i think..
cz after that jz b4 skul end he dint want to care bout me after his gang left..
last time we used to walk together to take our bike..
today he just walk away like im not there n when he reach his bike he just went off..
dint even look at us..


afternoon he smsed me telling me tmrw i go skul myself..
(b4 this we go together every morning)
i never reply..


m i wrong in this case??
wat did i do??
izzit wrong to talk to someone u hate?
or since u dun like him i cannot talk n join him?
i din do anything to u.. y should u treet me like dat?
its juz so hurt..
spended so much money on his bday last week n now dis is wat i get!
regret d.. wat should i call this?
childish? or u all r still not matured..
im not going to b like last time bagging u to b fren with me..
since u wan dis i'll just let it b..
my thinking n ur, not ur, is u all thinking is different..
u think its funny n i dun think so..
i laugh is bcoz i giv u face..
u do dis to me n i oso cannot do anything about it..
dis is wat u choose..
hate..
angry..
dissapointed..
sad.
shocked.
wat else should i say..
bye

at last..

at last..
after so long..
im spending some time here.,
on dis place i've not been visiting..
when is my last post??
let me see.. january..
so its 7+months i din post anything here d..

i've changed the blogskin..
simple n nice..
dis is wat i felt.. haha..
n changed the url.. re-link ya..

its sunday today..
dint go to church..
so tired cz last nite went bon-odori..
da japanese festival..

raining now since around 11am..
heavy heavy n now turn small..

i'm the survivor

last saturday n sunday was sio tired..
cz im one of da helpers for ''i'm the survivor'' treasure hunt..
posted pictures with writting at my multiply..
go n hav a look..
http://paulguoyang.multiply.com/photos
cz i lazy to write out everything again.. haha