actually... i dunno what im worry of now.. lol
life seems to be going on smoothly till now..
mayb i can survive for not going out?
he talked to me like nothing happen..
so.. i oso dunno.. haha

went jusco with mum..
coz he wasn't in tonite..
damn lots of traffic at Queensbay tonite..
bought 3 t-shirts. rm10 each.
and saw Alex Wai twice.. Lee Wei Lee once.. he was with alex.. lol
dunno why.. wei lee seems to stick with alex's family always..
he wont feel awkward ge meh?
or mayb he is their god-son? lol.. better dun.. HAHA

came home.. act as normal..
keep all the things and act as we never go out like dat.. haha
he came home and din ask aslo.. lol
goodnite..

想

想了很多。。
虽然说是有点“黑”。。 但也不能怪谁啊。。
难道要我责怪我的好朋友们吗？ 那是不可能的咯。。
要怪，也是怪自己而已。。或怪运气不好。。
谁叫我这几天的晚上都出门呢。。
星期一和二，呆在家，大概他没发现吧。。
星期三晚上，特地吃了晚饭才和学院同学出去。。
去了Hard Rock 兜风。。还没12点就到家了。妈还说：酱早哟。
星期四晚，和Sharon， John 去吃晚餐，过后去教会，有小组。
星期五晚，也就是昨天，和朋友们出去庆祝。。 12点多就到家了。。 很过分吗？
我觉得不会也。。以前也是这样的啊。。
就可能败在当时他的心情不好吧。。 所以被拿来出气了。。
好希望你不是当真的噢。。
好可怜的我啊~~

你叫我解释为什么那么迟回。。
你问我有什么好的理由？
你问我说我有做错了吗？
你问我我过分吗？
你问我还有什么好讲的吗？
我都选择不回应你。
因为我知道你是不会理解的。。
对，我当然也有错。所以我不跟你斗嘴。。

我参的朋友多啊。。我社交广啊。。我人缘好啊。。人人都要约我出门啊。。我能怎样?
我已经退了很多的邀请，你又懂吗？ 我可以每一晚都出去，但我选择不要。你又懂吗？
我刚刚才和教会的人们聊得来，想要参与更多的时候，你竟然阻止我？sien 到~
年轻人是这样的嘛。。可能你年轻的时候不是这样的，你也不用这样对待我吧。。
人家天天出门又不见得人家的父母这样。。 有些甚至两三点才回家，还不就是这样而已。
都不懂你在想什么的。。只希望你只是在说气话，不把它当真吧。。

现在心里好烦啊。。
昨晚4点才睡。睡到1.30pm。 特地不要出去，等他上了班才出房门。。
因为不是很想见到他嘛。。

朋友。我昨晚的确有点down的咯。。
不过后来都没事了。。我很enjoy拍照的时候也。。
那种尴尬的心情也暂时不见了。。
我没特地告诉你我得走了，因为我不想扫你们的兴嘛。。
我看到大家都玩得这么开心，我也不舍得离开啦。。
因为如果我真的要离开，我是可以的，只是如果我走了，我不就失去拍照的机会？XD
不是啦。。如果先离开，就会影响很大。。哈哈
更何况我也不懂我爸会那么气。。平时他都会是睡着了的。。
算啦。。 呆在家也不是会死。。科技那么发达。。
看得开了。。哈哈。。

好像有一点精神分裂酱。。骂骂骂了。。又笑笑。。傻了

Black Friday

30-07-2010, friday, i can say.. was so not my day..

started with morning mum got sick, brought her to clinic and late for work.

at the office, black ants attacked =.=
suddenly the whole floor was full of black ants that came from no where, and me and christie was like so panic.
i ran out to find spray, but couldn't find one, fine, took the broom.
swept a few times over and over again. then put the ants medicine, they like dun wan to eat eh.. sien.

lunch @ Little Cottage with aunt and christie. nice :)
went atm@jelutong. i knew i need some cash tonite. and lucky i have enough cash tonite, they dun accept master card/debit card. -.-|||
came out from bank and bought a bottle of Good bacteria for mum, which cost me RM50. i hope it works to my mum. if not wasted. and just now mum said dad took it too.

went home and couldn't sleep. was abit excited i guess..
early celebration of my birthday. dun ask why..
traffic jam all the way after picking K.Lay..
Shawn told me he couldn't make it, with the excuse his mum cooked alot. nvm..
lucky he dint attand. y? cause if he wants to go, i have to go pick him, and jam all the way to Farlim and jam jam jam to Batu Ferringhi. which will cause me late, and no more sunset. second is, he help me save money :D thank you shawn. appreciate it.. LOL


as i said, jam all the way up to Sunset Bistro, the best place to watch sunset.
reach there 7+pm, Beh lied to me said he was there d.. lol..
and i manage to catch the last few moments before the sun goes down.

my first visit to Sunset Bistro, sucks.
sat down, waiter brought the menu, and told me today they dun serve main course, snacks only.
i was like "huh.. omg.. wat should i do.."
in my mind many things flow in.. stunned..
and i told him i order later, wait my friends come first. coz he keep stand there marh..

it took me ages to decide where to go next..
coz everything was like in a rush..
last min plan, and everything.. and dis happen to me samore.. shit..
i felt very bad dat time, seriously. wanted to dig a hole and cover myself in it.
coz everyone was like looking and waiting for u..
giving opinion and suggestions..
and i told them im totally blank now..
coz i dint know dis would happen..

decided to go Xuan Shen steamboat.
on the way down, i oredi hav a feeling dat it would be full house there.
and we start to hav 3rd plan.
but untill we reach xuan shen the 3rd plan not yet come out.
and its true.. FULL.. my god..
dat bad kind of feeling came out again..
and k.lay told me dun stress myself..

went gurney plaza.. abit jam, it was nearly 9pm d..
everything was like push backwards and i still cant think of a solution.
wanted Breeks.. but some say not nice.. den change lor..
Seoul Garden.. ok, go..
went down.. no body serve geh.. waited a while..
a man came and said "sorry we're closed" coz no table available also. =.=
fine.. and the pressure came again.. with them telling me they are hungry already..
yes i know.. im hungry too.. and im worry and frustrated too..
i also wanna eat marh.. how i noe sunset bistro dun serve food tonite..
feel kinda sorry for them.. to wait so long for me and my decision..

went Manhattan Fish-market.
waited quite a while for the waiter to find and clear table for us..
luckily got place.. pheww..
start ordering.. and i can say.. im not in the mood already..
tried to act like nothing.. be cool.. be nice.. be friendly..
but things turn out nice.. so in the end was like back to normal again..
enjoyed the food. i hope u guys enjoyed too..

took quite alot of photos after dat..
love it..
and dad called..
asking me to go home early..
i said "hmm.." like i always did..
he seldom telephone me, and when he fones.. u noe something is going to happen.
mum sms told me to go back earlier too..
but how could i leave my frens rite..
and i was enjoying taking photos too..
i tried to give hints dat its late d and i wan to leave..
but when i see they like no reaction, den i think its ok la..
we dun always come out together like this and enjoy, so mayb this time i try to ignore mum a while and spent time with my frens..

left Gurney around 12.10+am
reach home around 12.35am
while im at the parking lot, dad called.
and i know its not a good sign.
"where r u?" "downstairs parking" "dun u feel u are abit over? come see me when u come up" "o.."
went in to his room.. and all the nagging start..
finally the best part came.. "i giv u untill sunday to play..u wan to go out whole nite or watever i dun care.."
"starting from next week.. u no nid go out anymore.. even ur church activities all oso no nid go."

FUCK! i am GROUNDED..?!?!?!
in my mind came out many scenes again..
what about my frens.. my college frens.. church frens..
and what about my Birthday?!
his words hits me deeply.
u know i nearly fainted in his room? haha
dunno why.. juz suddenly felt dizzy..“黑暗晕” in hokkien..
lucky he finish in time and i walk out and straight lye down on my bed for a few minute.. LoL
i dint cry, surprisingly. and i dint answer back anything he ask..
coz i noe.. i did something wrong.. no point i fight with him rite..
i hope he is not serious in this.. if not my life would be like ruined by his words..
mayb after 2 weeks i can go out happy hour again? lol

for my frens who see this..
please dun feel sorry or guilty for me.
because i made the choice..
and please dun ask me explain all the scolding part of him yea.. lol..
thank you for spending the nite with me..
thank you for attanding.
and sorry for the delaying at the beginning part.
i dun wan that to happen too..
its a long passage.. i think u would be tired by now..
close ur eyes and let ur eyes relax a while.. XD
see u soon.. i hope? 

Summary of June 2010

[22-06-2010]

Alila Homes, Penang.

[23-06-2010]

MMS to my mum. told her im not the one who did that.

[25-06-2010]

Persiaran.Gurney 1. saw this kind of bikes in a video on fb few days ago and now i see it in front of me.. Cool...

[26-06-2010]

 

St.Paul's Church, Pg.

Samson and Grace's Wedding. their car decorated with stickers on it. its new to me.

at nite. going for the wedding dinenr. 

[27-06-2010]

Paul and Patrick in the car :)

Queensbay with mum at nite. 

this is while waiting for mum outside the changing room

[30-06-2010]

Winnie's early birthday celebration!

mini crab..lol.. i ate it directly!.. abit yuckies..

her expression right after opening the box :D

Jason, Connie, Winnie, Joanne and Paul <3

the adorable kitty!

actually im jealous to giv it to her.. haha.. sooo cute..

[19-06-2010]

apply charcoal mask :D

 

 

[20-06-2010]  Father's Day

went to church for service. and got this pair of artificial roses. 2 red roses means both parents still alive. if one of them passed away then will hav one white and one red.

ordered a pandan cake from Jenny Cake House.

dad's favorite last time.

the durian is bigger then my feet! [at batu maung]

drain at World Fish Centre, batu maung.

inside the drain got living things leh!

got little fishes.. colourfull wan samore..

mayb u cant see it in here cause they are too small and abit transparent.

rainy day

水立方

suppose to be number 9. but i draw extra eyes and tounge for it.. haha..

cute rite..