another rainy day

rain since yesyerday night..
till some of Penang flooded.. haiz..

din go out today..
save money lar.. everyday go out can die okay..
mayb to my friends im very selfish..
most of the time i dun spend much money..
can save how much save how much..
but im poor okay..
dis is not i am very selfish or wat..
dis is each sen i spend is big to my family..
my family cannot affort me to spend much money.
so i muz save save save..

they are going to college after form5 but i dunno..
they can affort to go to college but to me i hav to think twice..
because if i've made the wrong decision den my whole family will suffer..
suffer because spend money on wrong place..
i oso wan to go college.. i dun wan form 6 but i hav to think many many thing..
i hav to work..
find income.. because i noe im that type who likes money.. i mean alot of money..
i like to buy new clothes.. branded.. expensive.. nice.. in-trend..
but if i dun hav money den i wont hav all this..
mayb to u i dun look poor..
because i m making myself to look good..
to protect my self confidence..
i dun wan people to look down on me..
i dun eat during recess.. because i wan to save money..
everytime going out with u all i hav to spend money..
i dun hav so much money to spend la..

haha..
im going crazy..
dunno y suddenly say all dis..
no one hurt me or wat but i juz suddenly think of this lo..